life is a paradox full of bullshit. i don't understand it why does it seem that every fucking thing has to be violently ripped away from me. stephanie moved nothing i could about that. that tore me apart. now marquita is being sent away for a couple of weeks. this weekend is a four day weekend after finals. my dad just recently disowned me he said i could leave and not come back he dosen't care anymore. fine with me. i'm speeding really bad i've had one hour of sleep at 8 a.m. this morning. i'm fucking wired been up all night long. i need to fucking step out of my humanly restrictions and take a good fucking look at my fucked life and find away to fix a never broken soul, but also find away to fix a broken trust, a broken love, a broken life, and maintain a steady life with the one i love.